This is like a vent for me. The context: my Wattpad friend, Leloirs, disappeared almost a month ago. And I just can't control myself for this. So I better write something, just to say goodbye to her, if she is not here anymore...

Leloirs, my sweet little friend. We've met on Wattpad thanks to Team Hot Wheels.

We are from different countries: You were from Venezuela, and I am from Argentina. And the first day we talked, we were wishing to met. You were coming to Argentina, just to met me.

We were online friends, but we were close. We told eachother everything. And once you told me: you had epilepsy, eating dissorders, nose bleeds almost every day, and... Leukemia.

Leloirs. Thanks to you I've met Atsuover. And a before you go, I've found the song "Missing You", made by Atsuover. The lyrics... The lyrics reminds me of you. "Wishing you're having a good rest at night, cause I can't know if you're still alive", is something the song says.

I feel like an ignorant, but I don't know if you can recover from Leukemia. And I hope you didn't leave. So, I really, really wish you recover, and come back to Wattpad. It feels empty without you.

Leloirs, you were a year younger than me, and thinking that you may be died just makes me feel horrible.

Leloirs, I don't know where you are, but I miss you a lot. I still have a lot of space here to write something for you, but I just can't, because all I can say is: I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not being there for you, to hug you. To tell you everything is alright.

I can't watch certain things because I remember about you everytime I do. Today, Team Hot Wheels was on TV, and I tried not to cry while watching it. Because I know you love the movies. I can't watch Eddsworld without think about your funny scenarios about it. I can't watch Wakfu because we made a roleplay for almost 4 months about it. I can't listen to Annie's mod songs in peace, neither watch Atsuover's videos, because all I can think about is you, when you told me you liked that mod and Annie a lot. And I've never watched Squid Game, but you liked it a lot, too. It is not attractive for me, but I know Red Light Green Light song very well, and whenever I listen to it... I think about you, wishing you're alright...

Leloirs, I can't handle this feeling anymore. Please, please don't go.

I'm praying these nights for you and your health. Because I don't want to lose you. I don't want to forget you...

This is Keani, or as you know me, ValeN. Leloirs, this is the real me. I actually worry for you. I cried too much for you, because I can't stop thinking you may be gone, and never coming back.

Leloirs, I love you, I miss you, I need you...

I don't know where you are,

but I hope you are doing great, and better than before.

And if you're gone, I'm sorry for not being there. But I wasn't able to travle.

I just hope this is all a misunderstanding, and your health is getting better. I hope this is just a problem with your mom's phone, and that's why you are not here. I hope that you didn't forget about me. I hope you recive my prayers. I hope I get a signal about you, that you're still here. All I can do, is to have confidence in God.

Leloirs, this is for you, just for you.

With love, your unfunny clown friend,

Keani.