Hi everyone! I just wanted to pass in here and say happy pride month!

And I wanted to come out, too. In my family, LGBT+ community is "banned", because... Religious family. And I've been closeted for so long.

So... I am a bisexual trans-catgender. I have more preferences for men. And my pronouns are he/nya/they. I don't mind any of those three pronouns, but I fully mind if people use female pronouns with me. I don't feel comfortable with them, still I sometimes use femenine clothes because ✨it is my life, and clothes don't determinate the person's gender, woosh✨🧚

I did an ugly edit with Basil from Omori and my three flags (bi, trans and catgender). If you wanna see it...

Not my best work, but I wanted to make a pfp for my social media, specially for this month.

And if you're gonna ask why I used Basil...

...

I have no idea. I just wanted to use them lmao.

Well, I guess that's it.

Enjoy this month, everyone. Remember you are valid just as you are! Except if you're a p-word or you use nor/mal as pronouns and identify as super straight. I'm sorry but it is stupid just as Neonight's cancelation.

Bye! I have an exam lol.

Guys its my birthday

yay

So, in January 14 is my birthday. Yay. And I'm not planning the very big thing, but I'm maybe going to make special animations, like my characters dancing to a random song, or something

That's all my celebration- i gotta get prepared, cuz every january 14 the summer hits hard

I don't care if someone reads it. I will just disappear.

My "friends" know that my parents are way worse than just strict. So if I see "Don't send H3nt4i", they should at least colaborate a little bit, am I right? Because my parents check my phone almost all the time. And even if I delete that, it stills there, for some reason. I told them to stop. What did those people do when I told them to stop? They misgendered me, called me a stupid ass bitch, and then left me and blocked me. Like... Wow?

If you don't want to be with me, then tell me, mh? No need to misgender me, when you KNOW it is hard to me to be accepted... No need to be an asshole.

Surprise. One of those people was the one I liked, I had a crush on. I was in love with. It's the third time the person I like is an asshole with me. Fuck it.

I better die before I met more people like them. Goodbye.

Trans. A trans guy. That's what I am. A trans guy who works daily to look the way they want. Tries to ignore the fact that his body is still a female body, or just makes jokes about it.

Luca is the name of this guy who was very nice to me. But turns out he is a liar; and, he harasses every woman or person with a female figure.

My friend today told me "Man, Luca is simping for you". I'd normally say "whatever" or "k" because I don't care. But he is simping because my body's still makes me look like a woman. That literally made me go sick. Even now I feel like I'm going to throw up.

I've been working hard to make myself a real guy. I did everything to change. But I am still a woman for him.

This proves that even if I try, I will be a woman?...

I hate everything. I'm going to throw up again, excuse me...

So, basically, mom, I'm a waste of time for you. That's what you wanted to say, right?

The past couple of months you've been trying to just not cry, because we are running out of money; you've lost a lot of students on your music class. My dad is not getting work. And the only money we have from your classes, you use it to buy food, and all things that are necessary, you also pay my English classes.

It's been a long time since I wanted to stop, and leave English class. First of all, because I'm already bored; we are "learning" things from 1st grade of school. Second, it will be a money you can save. I wanted to help you.

English teacher sent me a message for you: the paper that will decide, if I go to English class next year or not. So, I told you I don't want to go anymore. You got mad.

"You need to learn English", I, personally, think I know what is necessary, plus, I'm learning more watching videos, playing games and reading stuff.

"What you are "learning" on internet is not what you need", we are talking about English, not Zombie language...

"Everything you wanted, you got it. Just a few days you told us you wanted something, you got it. I don't know why are you acting like this", you took more than 3 years to make my dream come true; take voice acting classes. You never sent me to Japanese or guitar classes. You never said a word about that animation class I wanted to do. Also, about the merchandise and clothes, glasses, etc I want, all I did was to tell you that "I wish I could get those". I never repeated that I wanted the Eddsworld Red October's merch, those Chess Board Vans, the Bob and Bosip merch, the 3DS to play RHM... When the Bob and Bosip and Red October merch came out, I just told you "Oh, there is new merch of this and that! I wish I could get at least one of them...", and then I made you look to the desings, because, for some reason, I knew you would like them. That's it. And still, I'm not getting them. And I'm not mad. I'm mad because you're saying I get everything I want. Lie.

"If you quit English class, yuo're not doing anything. No more Voice Acting class, no Japanese, no Norwegian, no Russian, no French, NOTHING.", My voice acting class ended like a month ago. And, thanks to you, I'm using Duolingo for those languages (actually, I'm not right now, been busy with school).

Look, mom, I know Mr Beast, AmorAltra, Eddsworld, my videogames, my Wattpad stories, everything, are not English teachers. But, I learn a lot with them.

You say if I don't study, I can't talk with people in the USA or UK. I've been talking with a Russian girl in English a whole year. Most of my Instagram followers are Americans, and I talk with them a lot, and I CAN understand them.

This is the prove that you don't pay attention to me. This whole message is in English. It may have a mistake, which is possible, but at least this is understandable. I've been learning more in the internet, the English class did nothing but remind me of things from 1st grade of school, and it wasn't necessary, to be honest. If you want to know if I really learn with the internet, then come here, sit down with me, and look. Because that's what you had to do the whole time: pay attention to me.

And you know what? I know what I want to be when I grow up. And I do not need an English certification to do it. I've been learning animation by myself. And I'm not the best, but it is something. My animations will be for my YT channel. And no one said something about an English certification for it. Never.

Again. All I wanted to do was to help you save money. Not only quit and do nothing.

Thanks for nothing, mom.

This is like a vent for me. The context: my Wattpad friend, Leloirs, disappeared almost a month ago. And I just can't control myself for this. So I better write something, just to say goodbye to her, if she is not here anymore...

Leloirs, my sweet little friend. We've met on Wattpad thanks to Team Hot Wheels.

We are from different countries: You were from Venezuela, and I am from Argentina. And the first day we talked, we were wishing to met. You were coming to Argentina, just to met me.

We were online friends, but we were close. We told eachother everything. And once you told me: you had epilepsy, eating dissorders, nose bleeds almost every day, and... Leukemia.

Leloirs. Thanks to you I've met Atsuover. And a before you go, I've found the song "Missing You", made by Atsuover. The lyrics... The lyrics reminds me of you. "Wishing you're having a good rest at night, cause I can't know if you're still alive", is something the song says.

I feel like an ignorant, but I don't know if you can recover from Leukemia. And I hope you didn't leave. So, I really, really wish you recover, and come back to Wattpad. It feels empty without you.

Leloirs, you were a year younger than me, and thinking that you may be died just makes me feel horrible.

Leloirs, I don't know where you are, but I miss you a lot. I still have a lot of space here to write something for you, but I just can't, because all I can say is: I'm sorry, I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I'm sorry for not being there for you, to hug you. To tell you everything is alright.

I can't watch certain things because I remember about you everytime I do. Today, Team Hot Wheels was on TV, and I tried not to cry while watching it. Because I know you love the movies. I can't watch Eddsworld without think about your funny scenarios about it. I can't watch Wakfu because we made a roleplay for almost 4 months about it. I can't listen to Annie's mod songs in peace, neither watch Atsuover's videos, because all I can think about is you, when you told me you liked that mod and Annie a lot. And I've never watched Squid Game, but you liked it a lot, too. It is not attractive for me, but I know Red Light Green Light song very well, and whenever I listen to it... I think about you, wishing you're alright...

Leloirs, I can't handle this feeling anymore. Please, please don't go.

I'm praying these nights for you and your health. Because I don't want to lose you. I don't want to forget you...

This is Keani, or as you know me, ValeN. Leloirs, this is the real me. I actually worry for you. I cried too much for you, because I can't stop thinking you may be gone, and never coming back.

Leloirs, I love you, I miss you, I need you...

I don't know where you are,

but I hope you are doing great, and better than before.

And if you're gone, I'm sorry for not being there. But I wasn't able to travle.

I just hope this is all a misunderstanding, and your health is getting better. I hope this is just a problem with your mom's phone, and that's why you are not here. I hope that you didn't forget about me. I hope you recive my prayers. I hope I get a signal about you, that you're still here. All I can do, is to have confidence in God.

Leloirs, this is for you, just for you.

With love, your unfunny clown friend,

Keani.

Well, today I finished my voice acting class. I feel so happy; I've met a lot of cool people, and my teachers are pretty nice with me (one of them even helped me when I was down abt the fact that I'm a FTM and my family didn't support me, I really needed support. I cried a lot that day😭)

If my teacher Herni, or Mel, or one of my friends sees this, I love you! Thank you all for these magical classes. Thank you for being part of my dream!!!

I can't stop crying. Thank you, thank you, thank you!